It was about 6:30am when I woke up. The 6hr time difference was really wreaking havoc with me and so I opted to get up out of bed and go get some breakfast. I wandered downstairs to the hotel lobby and asked an employee where I could find the breakfast. Turns out they have a huge buffet and it’s included in my room rate. Crammed myself full of food and went back to bed. I didn’t need to be at my client until 9am.
Laying in bed, I sat there and thought “man I don’t want to go to work”. I knew that I had to iron my clothes, get dressed, and go teach a class but it was the last thing I wanted to do in that moment.
Truth is, I go through this a lot. I find myself getting up in the morning and really wishing I didn’t have to go in and teach yet another class. I’d rather just lay in bed and relax. I think about being on vacation and not having to worry about anything other than whether I want to get out of bed or not.
When I feel like that, there’s a part of me that wonders if it’s time to move on and do something new and different. Walk away from what I have been doing for so long and go a different path. There’s a lot of times where I get up in the morning on the first day of class, and sometimes on subsequent days, and I just feel like “I don’t want to do this anymore.”
Today was one of those days. I really had no interest in doing another class. But then I got there and it changed.
Met some cool people and class went REALLY well. Far better than things went last week and all of a sudden I remember what it is I enjoy about my job. I came out of class today really excited to continue the rest of the week.
So that’s why I say I’m sitting on the fence. The start of a week tends to be where I feel like I’m done. But once I get into it, it’s another story. I also know that some topics I teach are more interesting to me than others and last week was not a high point for me. Not a bad class per ce, just not a great week in general.
This week, well, I’m in South Africa and going to Victoria Falls on the weekend. It’s hard to complain when you get that kind of opportunity.
Which leads me to yet another reason why I like doing what I do. I get great opportunities to see new places and meet new people as a result of where my work sends me. But trying to remind oneself of this is a little harder when you wake up in the morning and you just don’t want to get out of bed.
Maybe I need an app to remind me.