It’s been a rough 6 weeks. I’m sitting in the airport in Montreal, anxiously awaiting my next flight to arrive so I can make my way to my final destination. From the lounge, I can see the gate but I don’t see an aircraft. That means either that it is in route here, or it’s late which I don’t want because I have a very short connection in Washington that I missed last time (even tho it was late) and I don’t want another repeat of that.
I gotta say, I have been feeling quite out of my mind that last few weeks. Maybe not out of my mind but definitely not myself. Less patient, a bit on edge, somewhat cranky, and just not the most pleasant person to be around. Right now it seems, there is just TOO many things to deal with all hitting at once.
The biggest of course is the baby. Although I am excited, I don’t think you can fathom some of the fears and worries and issues I am experiencing unless you are a guy and have had kids. Ken, were you worried before your first one was born? I am anxious for the pregnancy to be over and for the fun to begin but at the same time I have other things going on.
I’m not sleeping very well which of course complicates life because when you don’t sleep well, you aren’t yourself either. Being on the road and changing time zones every few days is wreaking serious havoc with my head and believe me, I am anxiously awaiting Thursday when my travel is done til at least October. I will definitely need the break.
Then we have the issue of family. My step-father’s cancer is up in the air and with all the treatments, doctors, and all of that stuff, my mom is having a very hard time and she of course leans on me and Tamara and I love my family dearly, but I’m just feeling a bit overwhelmed.
Add to this the fact that one of my best friends is going through some issues in his life and relies on me to help him out. I’m there as a friend, but it’s just one more thing….
I’m also trying not to think about what may be coming down the pipe at work. I am feeling good about things there but being bought out by some other company is of course going to cause some worry until I see an org chart that has my name on it, or someone up higher in the food chain tells me things are safe. I have a good feeling but uncertainty, especially with the baby coming soon, is not something I need right now.
Plus, I got called my the cops. Actually, that’s kind of funny. I forgot to pay for gas on my way to Shediac the other day so they hunted down my phone number and called me about it. Tamara got the message and when I got home, she was just itching for me to listen to it. I quickly went and paid the gas. The funniest part is that while I was at the gas station, I got, and paid for, my lunch. Didn’t pay for the $15 worth of gas, but paid the $7 for my lunch. Another sign that my head is not where it should be.
I am fortunate that I have Friday off and I think I am going to go hide somewhere. I’m not sure if that will actually happen, but it may have to. We’ll see.
But, it does look like I should head off to my gate soon. I still don’t see my plane but hopefully all is well and I will be where I am supposed to be tonite, on time. This is one time where being late really is not an option. So folks, I hope everyone has a good week. We’ll see if I get to posting anything useful before I get home. Who knows. Maybe big things will happen in the next few days. You never know right?
